i wake up and go to the kitchen, make my morning galão.
i go to the living room and you’re there, working on your computer.
you join me on the balcony. we talk, spend time together. it’s all so natural.
you admire me so much.
i tell you i need to work. i want to be alone.
i’m terrified you’ll see through me and realize i’m not as good as you think.
later we walk on the beach, watch the sunset, leave our footsteps behind.
we go to the supermarket.
we cook dinner and eat.
we watch a tv show.
being with you is being at home.
we never fight. we never have issues.
you’re such a good girl. the best i’ve ever seen.
i feel a deep need to protect you.
you make me strong.
i want to be a good man for you.
i wake up and go to the kitchen, make my morning galão.
i go to the living room and you’re not there.
we haven’t spoken in years.
i let you go because i was too scared to connect,
afraid to open up.
i miss you.
i miss your smell.
your presence.
feeling at home.
i know you are well.
you moved on.
you are happy.
that’s enough for me.
i send you love.
