Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️

A quick note to my #trans siblings. If you ever find yourself with the opportunity and ability to care for or even visit a trans friend or family member post-surgery, do so. It is one of the most magical and healing experiences we can encounter. Thank you, @npub1psr8...ufr4 , for sharing a time, place, and spirit with me. The last two weekends were amazing. I love you, girl; I am so glad you got to experience this, and that I got to share this time with you. :QueerCatHeart_Trans:

Realizing today just how broken the concept of heaven and hell makes people. You start with, “Follow these commandments. If you do, you end up in the spiffy place. If you don’t, you’re going to end up in eternal torment.” The idea of following rules because of eternal torment becomes more important than actually developing one’s own sense of moral duty, of questioning right and wrong - something that only comes from facing difficult choices, Morally ambiguous choices. The ultimate result of this is whole swaths of the population who’ve never developed their own morality, and would gladly sell their souls and everyone else’s lives if a two-bit swindler convinced them it’d give them a ticket to the spiffy place. #religion #christianity

Community is what helps us. This weekend, a very good friend ( @npub1psr8...ufr4 ) reminded me to be myself, that I need to be more myself, that sometimes I need reminding to be myself. I loved the moments we shared this weekend, and will hopefully share again. This morning, for reasons, old traumas hit hard. So, I remind myself who I am, parts of me I neglected in pain and anxiety, and take care of myself how I can. More friends came in to help, even if they weren't there. I find myself calming to tea I received as a gift from a lovely marrying couple, and think of the beautiful moments they shared with us. Hold to community, in light and in darkness. This was a middling-to-bad day, overall, though nowhere near as bad as pre-transition. Really bad days get harder, when community is needed most of all. And good days... well, celebrations are meant to be with community. :QueerCatHeart_Trans: #trans #queer #transgender #lgbt

Note to self: Next time evangelicals start claiming the Rapture is coming soon, buy a bunch of human-sized balloons and a canister of helium.