I did a session this week where we worked directly at the fracture point.
The actual location of it, instead of all the downstream patterns and stories that it is so easy to get caught in.
And what became so clear that I realise I probably need to say in as many different ways as possible, is how common it is to hit this spot in your growth process, and literally not have an actual fucking clue what is going on with you. Like it is maddeningly convoluted.
A fragment comes up for integration. And with that come the old sensations / emotions / thought-forms.
But when you’re asked what you’re actually feeling, it’s like you draw a blank. Just feel bad. Like it’s too much. Like: I don’t know, but I need it to stop.
The system “goes down” but there’s no language for it because what is asking for recognition has never been seen. So the fragment stays unnamed.
Untended and unintegrated.
And then you get the fear because once one episode in the ringer is over, another one invariably comes and you still don’t have a clue “what it is” that keeps coming up. And even though you can trace some progression and “lightening” of the load, it feels like the same thing. Every. Time.
The fear-based narratives grip on all the sides.
Fear of how you’re gonna sleep through night and then go function the next day. Fear of running your business into the ground. Fear that you’ll be looping around the same thing forever.
And that fear becomes a second, heavier layer - one that creates FAR more suffering than the original fragment ever did.
I know this terrain so well. When a fragment keeps pulling you into the murk because it WANTS to be seen and brought home, and you don’t recognise WHO it is, so the mind scrambles wildly.
The problem solver kicks in:
Another biiiiig old layer of distraction. Fixing. Analysing. Searching for a cause.
Often, the sensations get projected onto external situations.
(aaaaaaanother layer!) Onto work and business. Onto money, body image, relationships. Onto the future.
There can be SO much mental obsession and distraction layered over the top of the thing.
Yet, the truth is so much quieter and more precise. And it is NEVER a failure or a regression. Ever.
It’s an integration point that hasn’t been met yet, and when it is finally recognised - not solved or bypassed or analysed - it shifts. The bottle necked energy lifts. Fear disperses.
You feel *consistently* better and you lead your business and life from that place, which obviously makes ALL of the difference - to your enjoyment and your results.
There is no relief in trying to contort your outside circumstances. It is a dead end road and it is one that many people circle around forever.
The release comes from finally knowing the truth of what you’re actually in and having a clear and supportive context for how to navigate it.
This is literally the difference between living in loops, and living a “whole pie” life, where creativity, spirituality, material success, relationships, and emotional life are fulfilled and continually evolving from a place of fulfilment.
This is the work I do.