In high school I struggled with depression and had suicidal intentions. Some of this was chemical (it’s a weird phase of life) but much of it came down to not seeing my purpose. Despite being raised in a Christian home, the gospel message didn’t resonate with me. The only things that seemed to matter were money and power and I chartered a course early in my life to acquire as much of both as possible. I remember thinking during this time that best case scenario was living to 30 yrs old maybe. Through a series of events God brought me to my knees and revealed himself to me and I submitted to his authority in my life.
Now as I sit on the doorstep of turning 40 I can now reflect on the amazing ways in which God works in one’s life. I am fuller and more blessed than I ever could have imagined with a loving wife, 4 amazing kids and people in my life willing who invest in me.
I’ve never admitted this publicly but for anyone out there who might be in a similar situation, your present trials and challenges may just be God’s attempt to get your attention.
