To all the trans folks feeling like they are awful, unloveable, and/or undesirable tonight, I am sending offers of virtual hugs and metaphorical hot cocoa. You deserve care and the kind of attention that would feel good for you 🫂🫂🫂🫂☕️☕️☕️☕️

So…um…anyone feel like overthrowing the bourgeoisie today?

What does the immediate motive for the Minneapolis school shooting seem to be? An extremist fandom subculture. For those that don’t know, there is an online subculture that practices obsessive fandom of mass shooters. They call themselves TCC for “True Crime Community” (not the general sense of the term of people who watch or listen to true crime shows). Many have said the shooter’s videos and journals seem incoherent or contradictory because they are looking for an ideology, but that’s because it’s not about ideology in the classic sense. This subculture obsesses about school shooters and mass shooters, creates memes about them (the shooter’s guns and journals had tons of internet memes, including the Loss meme), they cosplay as school shooters (this is why there are kmfdm stickers and shirts in the shooter’s videos, and they talked about putting together a school shooter cosplay), and they encourage each other to imitate the shooters by doing one. It’s of note that this subculture actually is more likely to produce shooters who are women or of other minority groups. This shooter referenced on her gun a girl who committed a school shooting that was a part of TCC. There have been other women and girls who have attempted or made plans to coming out of this space. And there was also a “Black white supremacist” who committed mass violence too from TCC. It also appears that the shooter was exposed to or spent time around anti-trans detransitioner rhetoric. They were no longer identifying as a woman, and were talking about detransitioning because they can’t ever “actually” be a girl. If anything, this shows how anti-trans rhetoric and policies feed hopelessness and isolation, making individuals more vulnerable to radicalization. All in all, this points to the desperate need to continue creating spaces that bring in and help young marginalized folks connect and feel like they have a life and a future. Isolation and hatred make them vulnerable and we can do something about that. What I shared above is based upon reporting by cool zone media on the It Could Happen Here podcast, which is run by multiple journalists who have spent a decade reporting on mass shooters.

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Yesterday I started community college classes, washed the car, and did a follow up message with a doctor after not getting a response in 3 months. Today, I applied for another job, showed up to class again, and worked out at the gym. And I took my night and morning meds on time! Let’s see if I can make it a three day streak of being an almost functional adult 😅

When I have a solid income again, I want to plan a road trip to visit the graves of every shithead who helped put this current wave of theocratic fascism in power - Pat Robertson, Jerry Falwell, James Dobbs, etc. It just so happens that in many of the states they are buried in, it’s also a crime for me to use a public restroom as a trans person. So I will make sure to “pay my respects” at each grave. 🤭

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Had a big stop-me-in-my-tracks moment during therapy this morning. My therapist suggested using an Internal Family Systems lens to something we've been working on. Until recently, I used to have a nightly habit of saying horrible things to myself as I fell asleep, "You are such a burden, and so off-putting. You are always going to be alone and you don't belong, you know? You really should give up"....that kind of thing. I jokingly call them "nightly negations" instead of "daily affirmations," cause that is basically what I'm doing with roughly an equivalent negative impact on my mental health. Well, in talking it out, I said I didn't really understand what this part of me has been trying to do. When part of me used to say I couldn't transition because I would be an ugly woman or whatever other justification to tear me down, I realize now that was part of me trying to protect myself from the danger in expressing femininity or queerness that came from past dangers and traumas. But these "nightly negations" didn't seem to link to any particular trauma, so it just didn't make sense to me and I couldn't see what it was doing. Then my therapist said, "Maybe she's trying to make sure you don't feel safe so that you stay on guard." And that stopped me in my mental tracks. It was a big "oh fuck" moment. My negative self-talk doesn't happen when there is a crisis or I am actually in danger, it happens most when life quiets down and I am actually safe. But this part of me is stuck in a place of danger and is trying to make sure I don't stop being vigilant so we can stay safe from the threats lurking in trusting people or feeling secure in relationships. ...and now I am calling this part of myself Batman. 😅 1/2

Come this time next year, there is a non-zero chance that the majority of my transfem friends have had bottom surgery. Is it going to be like being the one committed single girl at the wedding or the one friend who doesn’t have or want kids, it’ll just be me and like two other girls at the transfem party hanging out at the mostly intact bits table? 😅 Okay, to be fair, this might be what my few remaining monogamous friends feel as the majority of us embrace polyamory. Though, to be fair, the reason they are all sitting together is the rest of us need a whole table for our polycule. 🤣 (To be clear, none of this is negative, just feeling silly about where things are at this point in my trans community)

After almost two weeks with my cishet friends, I had to recharge my gay. Gay successfully imbibed:

Apparently they just removed bisexuals from Stonewall’s federal monument history page. Of course, they already removed references to trans people too. Are they literally going to remove us one letter at a time? Next is lesbians and then the gays and then it’s just this mysterious place that is a monument for no reason at all. Blegh.