Huh, weird, I guess I never actually said it until what someone said prompted me today, but um, yeah, I’m a survivor of an abusive household, have had members of my family be both victims and perpetrators of DV, I have been sexually harassed in public in front of others and no one did anything, and there are other things that I will not share publicly because that’s my choice. And I have sat with more survivors on crisis hotlines than most people would believe. In case it still needs to be said that we all know survivors and need to fucking put a stop to SA and DV. And that is done through community work and changing the structures of power that make people vulnerable to this violence. That is my professional opinion as someone with a bunch of related expertise too.

Open source friends: are there any good substitutes to google docs? I was debating just using Dropbox or something, but I’m wanting to be able to work on writing on the same document in the cloud from multiple computers. May also need to be able to work simultaneous with others on the same document.

I am debating how I can make a living doing community work going forward. I’m burnt out on the typical nonprofit, and most of those doing lgbtq community organizing are being gutted and limited on so many fronts. And government jobs are also being cut left and right, from federal to local levels. I am damn good at community organizing and service work, but how the hell do I pay rent with that? If I have to do something else with the majority of my spoons, then how could I muster the energy to do that during free time? And mutual aid, while it is the mode I want to do more organizing under, seems unlikely to be able to meet my material needs in the next year or two. So the only idea I’m kicking around now is maybe going back to doing some form of community consulting work. Maybe I can offer my services running workshops and helping people build the beginnings of their own mutual aid networks and groups? I could provide training in the skills people need, education on important concepts and frameworks, and such? Either that, or find some magical way to make enough money writing or creating content of some sort. Which seems foolhardy. Ugh

One of the ways I know transphobes have never actually known a trans person in real life is that they think we make lots of demands on others, insist on taking up space, and don’t care about inconveniencing others. Like, anyone who has known or cared about a trans person knows it is like pulling teeth to get them to reach out or allow others in for support. Almost all of us are all carrying the trauma of having internalized the message that asking to exist as ourselves is such an imposition on others we have been afraid to do it most of our lives. Like, is there a single trans person on the fedi who has not said at least once that they feel like a burden if they express any of their needs or desires, much less even ask others to use the correct pronouns for them? Meanwhile, most transphobes think that it’s discrimination against them for other people to exist.

Oh lord, it’s happening…can some cutie actually come over and show me how to install Linux? 😅

Feeling grief over losing my job today finally. And it hit me because they took away my kids…the trans kiddos I was auntie too, nurtured and mentored every day….i loved those kids so much and it feels like part of myself was carved out of me. And to make matters worse, the kids are going to lose programming and support because these knobheads had no real plan in place before they got rid of me. Fuck those cis women for being so callous and cruel.