All through my career life, I was mostly guided by intuitive actions. Most often, people around me were often baffled by me as they couldn't intellectually process my actions. Whenever I was denied opportunities due to the intellectual dissonance between my actions and social norms. I had to go through periods of turbulence that would threaten my physical survival. But, my intuitive actions, in spite of defying intellectual demands, paid off handsomely in the end. But there was a fallout in terms of the number of people who would like to connect with me. As I would not fit within their programmed ways of intellectual processing befitting legal and traditional outfits, I was always considered an outlier by them. Eventually, my friends and family relatives started receding from me like the Doppler shift. It did unsettle me for a while, but wisdom resurfaced, and I always pulled myself together. My career life, though it was relatively much shorter than most of my peers, it was phenomenally more productive than theirs. I retired from the regular job when I turned 50 and became a freelancer in the electrical engineering profession for a few more years after that. To my pleasant surprise, some of my erstwhile corporate clients with whom I had good personal rapport became my personal clients and supported me to continue with a higher income generating capacity than that of my regular employment days. The biggest bottleneck was the uncertainty that was piling up about the sufficiency of savings to hang my boots and spend my evening of life in the most important thing I wanted, that is, a spiritual resort for my body-mind. I was always grooming myself in the path of spiritual awareness from my teenage days. It took me 30 years to come to a state of enlightenment that my opened towards infinite love and wisdom. I had gathered enough knowledge by then about the monetary systems of the world and how the central banks and governments were destroying the world by debasing currencies.I had no qualms about reaching the conclusion that money was at the root of all evil. Love and wisdom can not remain pure and unconditional in a complicated arena where money-making can destabilize your life. It was often traumatic to do a tight walk between the spiritual values of living and money-making. Then Bitcoin came one day serendipitously, and my intuition was so strong that I couldn't resist adopting it for all my money-making woes. Initially, in the first 5-6 years, it was turbulent, but it gave me a pristine vision that I never saw in banker's money. My life changed forever. Intuition is like a lighthouse. It will not come looking for you. You sail towards it, seeing the light within your own heart. It is very difficult to express its beauty to others until they too get it in their hearts and heads.

I was scammed by a fake auctioneer for cars today. Again, it was me who didn't do due diligence before transferring the money to someone I had no previous experience with. Psychologically, I was undergoing the traumatized experience of the car crash that I escaped miraculously 3 days back. Physically, i had no damage except a bruise near my ribcage. But the pain was excruciating. I was feeling the need strongly to buy a used car with whatever money I had. My mind was very foggy and succumbed to the scammer. Foggy minds get scammed easily. There is always some kind of fear that clouds you when you are thrown out of your comfy zone. Renting a car could have brought me back to the comfy zone. I didn't even have the patience to wait a few days to sort out the rental car from the insurance company. My bad!

I reckon i can feel the intensity of the earth's shift by way of physical uneasiness i am experiencing now. The comet C2023 is adding to the cause. It was extremely heavy when I went to bed in the late evening.

The seeds of thoughts are watered by your emotions.

Who can ruffle my feathers As I delve into the soul's depths? Who will call me out As I master the soundness of the silence? Who can shower me angles of light As meditate upon the angels of love? How radiant are the smiles On the countenance of of my parents! How beautiful are the petals Of the roses in my garden! There's not a moment I am lonely When I am alone...

MATURITY Someone said to me that "maturity is about the way you comprehend and perceive the world around you. It is how you consider other's feelings and choose your words around them with care and how you respond to challenges with grace. It is reflected in what you hold dear and what you choose to allow in your life. True maturity is in how you carry yourself and represent those around you as an adult. Growing old is like growing up." I contemplated upon the above thesis of maturity. It is the kind of maturity that most successful people in the world uphold. But I asked myself a question; Are all these mature minds happy? Sadly, you know that they are necessarily not happy. Growing up does not make sense or bring happiness unless you grow deeper into your own self. Most people forget to grow deeper into themselves even when they make claims about their maturity. Jesus was right when he said, "If you don't become like those children, you won't enter the kingdom of God." He was not referring to the worldly maturity of serious and successful people of the world. Worldly maturity brings seriousness but not happiness . When you grow deeper into your own self, you become like children. You become playful and unpredictable like Krsna and Sreeramkrisna paramhansa. Mature people are highly predictable in their nature. Maturity of the world will not bring happiness if you are not playful like Krsna. Uncertainty brings an adventerous spirit into life. Love is always an adventure. The mature people of this world often miss the beauty of adventures of unpredictable missions. Krsna gave the most mature advice to Arjuna about life. Don't glorify worldly maturity or success. Death will make them worthless. It will only make you look like a serious animal with a serious wrinkled face. Nothing more than that. Wildflowers enjoy themselves more than the tall trees that struggle to grow deeper.

Two of my friends visited us today. I wanted to entertain them with my skills of doing a steak braai. It's not a very easy task for me because I am still learning the ropes of making a good steak. At the end of the day, literally, while the sun was going down into the ocean before my eyes, I pulled off a great steak dish and served it with mashed potatoes and salads. The synchronicity was obvious to me from the angles of the love light from the sunset that blessed my performance. We had a good time together. Roderick and Abe came to embark upon a new phase of their life by constructing a house for Roderick's cousin in the Darling Green Country Estate, where I, too, have a stand to build. In fact, I was contemplating the services of them for my building as well. His cousin bought the stand following my advice. However, I had decided to postpone the construction of my house due to various issues related to finance and the fear of being a guinea pig for his construction adventure. Once his cousin's house is finished, I will have a spec house for my benchmark to consider them again. Roderick had been struggling with his career, and I will be the happiest person if he gets a breakthrough with this new venture.

I wake up in the morning and feel the vibes of a sobbing humanity. The ocean that hums a few meters away from my bedroom sets a sad tone to it. I am grateful to existence for not losing my soul. I remain sad during most of the waking hours of the day because I have to deal with the thoughts and actions of a lot of soulless characters in the simulation. I tend to spend more time with nature and silence rather than indulging in conversations. I wish I could meet up some men or women who share their thoughts soulfully. Why have they not become aware of their own receding souls?