So many tears. Laughs. Emotions. As someone who leads retreats & has coached hundreds to optimal health, I know the value of investing in myself and being a student again. Never be the smartest person in the room. I just spent a week immersed in a music residency here in northern Austria, surrounded by wild beauty, deep musicianship, and the kind of honest conversations that cracked my emotion flood gates open (lions, tigers and bears, oh my). This experience rewired something in me. It reminded me that music isn’t just sound. It’s medicine. Vibration is memory. And I sat with myself in soulitude quite a bit during this interactive time, reflecting and FEELING deep. My throat has carried deep layers of unconscious grief, and attachment to others, outcomes, things... wanting to be “seen” — even though it always starts within myself (everything is a reflection of what’s going on inside) Lately I’ve been meeting parts of myself I didn’t expect. Emotions surfacing I thought I’d buried. Not because something’s wrong but because I’m exactly where I need to be. This human experience is wild right?? The mind tries to grip, but emotions steer the wheel. Don’t numb them. Don’t judge them. FEEL them. Move with them. Let them guide you back to truth. It’s never about being “perfect” and never fucking up. It’s about deepening into your most authentic, raw & natural self. FEELING the pain. And letting it go. Because it’s not serving you anymore.

The one you love most will stir the shadows you’ve spent years avoiding. It’s all (pain teaching) love. The love that drags your wounds to the surface so you can actually become the realest, most authentic you.

Running on empty by 2 pm? Then stop being a go go go goofball with nervous system overload. Your brain isn’t wired to grind nonstop. But here’s the fix: just 10–20 minutes of stillness (lying flat, palms up, eyes closed) can reset your entire system. This activates the parasympathetic state lowering cortisol, restoring heart rate variability and boosting mitochondrial energy production. Think of it like shutting down extra browser tabs. Shavasana, Yoga Nidra, even a hammock, no fancy tools, just you and gravity (“if “gravity” is even real). You don’t need caffeine, you need calm.

Woke up at 7am in Prague. Got in my meditation and Qi Gong in the hotel. Packed and ready, lugging over 70 pounds of bags, groceries, gear. Train leaves at 8:20am for Austria. I’m feeling goooood. Call an Uber thinking it’ll be fast like usual (nope). 15-minute wait. By the time it arrives, the clock’s ticking hard. We drive through morning traffic, and I get dropped with about 10 minutes left. I’m soaked in sweat already. Inside the massive station—everything’s in Czech. I can’t read anything. I’m darting around, trying to decipher signs while dragging my luggage. Finally I see the train platform in the distance… I sprint, body overheating, heart racing, only to watch the train pull off right in front of me!! I take a moment, breathe. Then head toward the nearby bus station, walking with all my stuff under the rising sun. About halfway there, I see a Lime scooter. I used the app back in Berlin. Quick unlock. I’m rolling again gripping all my heavy shit 😂 But Prague has this designated parking zone rule. I’m mid-stress, trying to lock the scooter, app glitching, no zones in sight. Finally find one, ditch it, and make it to the bus station. Another $80 down. I ask about my bus, looking for signs, but it already left. Now I’m $130 in the hole between that and the train. I’m dripping in sweat, yogurt exploded in my bag, navigating a foreign city with everyone rushing around me like I’m invisible. I decide to take the metro back to the main station. This time, I’m early. Regulated. Not frazzled. Just aware. And that’s why I live healthy. Why I train, eat right, and sharpen my nervous system. Not for looks. For moments like this. When life is WILD, and I can still breathe through it. You can’t always control what hits you. But you can choose how strong and clear you meet it.