Today I found out some news about my old friends, my friends from high school
I was at the grocery store when I met one of them (he looked really great, and I wanted to tell him that, but I thought it would be inappropriate, my social skills aren't the best so.. ¯\\_(ツ)_/¯)
he told me that one of them migrated to Dubai, while another got married.. the others he hasn't heard from in years.. we updated our contact information and we parted ways..
I paid the cashier and forgot to pick my own groceries, she called me repeatedly but I absolutely didn't hear a thing, I was in a separate world, lost in my thoughts..
I walked for like idk.. 8 meters.. than I realized I'm carrying the receipt but not the groceries.. I was disoriented.. 😵💫..
the guy who left.. we were so close, so basically I felt stuck and left behind.. that feeling makes you wanna catch up..
It really sucks when you compare yourself to others..I try not to.. But when I do.. I feel like garbage.. I feel stuck while all my peers are getting ahead..
But maybe there's nothing wrong with being a failure.. maybe I can succeed by being the the best loser :-[