When I was about 13/14, I realized that I was/am attracted to people, not their gender... I know, this may sound weird, but that's how my then undiagnosed AuDHD brain called it... How a person is, and of course how they look to me, is what makes me attracted to them. So I always thought I was bisexual... So I used that when I talked about me and my sexuality... :bi_heart: But then, I learned more about myself. About the different sexual orientations... And now, I'm wondering if I may be non-binary... I've been reading up about it a bit, trying to understand it better... This is one of the things that I found online: *The term “nonbinary” can mean different things to different people. Essentially, it’s used to describe someone whose gender identity can’t be described as exclusively woman or man. Some people who are nonbinary experience their gender as both man and woman, and others experience their gender as neither man nor woman. Nonbinary can also be used as an umbrella term, encompassing many gender identities that don’t fit into the man-woman binary.* This came from the Healthline website. And well, I've never felt like a girly girl... I loved boys clothes, I loved boys toys, when I could I got very short hair... I am a woman with the bits and bops that go with it. But I've never felt like a proper one. I didn't do heels, dresses, or makeup. I don't really behave like a girl... So that made me wonder if I could be non-binary instead? :nonbinary_heart: I am wondering if my non-binary friends may be able to share a wee bit of why they identify as non-binary. Can it be "as simple" as not feeling like a girly girl when born as CIS woman? But also not feeling like I'm in the wrong body? 🤔 My autistic brain really struggles with this... I don't want to offend anyone, but I also want to know more about this, about me... If that makes sense... Thanks in advance for sharing your thoughts! I really appreciate it! :blobcatlgbt:

:bear_love: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos :purple_heart_sparkle: I is back! Hide the precious things, all that glitters will be mine! :moomin_sparkles: hihi.... Just kidding... I had a decent night, albeit a tad short again. Maybe because I had some snoozes on the couch earlier today? 🤔 I dunno, but Arwen didn't seem to mind... I had a notification that my parcel had been delivered in the postbox. But when I checked... It was empty! So of course I'll be stressing over this now for the whole night! I'll need to contact the seller, as it wasn't a cheap parcel, and I can't just afford to "order it again"... It should have been in my post box, and they usually deliver there. But nope... Maybe a neighbor got it. Maybe they'll be honest and get it to me when they see my name and address? But maybe it's been knicked and I'll have to hope that I can get a replacement sent out to me... Fingers crossed 🤞🏻 that we can sort this out. As I do want to get that USB drive, as I need it for my phone and laptop... Ugh, why wasn't it just in the mailbox? 😔 So yeah, that's what I'll be stressing over tonight, that silly USB drive that's not been delivered... Today I'll take mum to Germany again. I'll be helping her with the compression stockings again, this time I'll check the left and right 😂 before mum mixes them up again... I made my list of what I need, so hopefully I will be able to get everything. 😊 Let's see if I can get some exercises in here... Have a good time folks! And remember, be kind, not just to others, but to yourself as well. :ablobcatheartsqueeze: 🧚🏼‍♀️ 🍀 💜 🐾 #PixysJourney Sorry I let altbot help me with the alt text, but I'm a tad tired and struggling with my words. 😔

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After sharing a Toot about alt text usage, I got curious. This is nothing too serious though, nothing to have heated discussions over, just me bein...

I've never had a Toot go this viral before! :bowie_stardust: it was awesome, but honestly, also a tad overwhelming... I'll be writing a blog post about this and what I've learned/gained from it all. Thanks ever so much 💜 I really appreciate it! And yes, I asked altbot for support with this image. :ablobcatangel: I've had too little sleep, and my spoons are low... Plus there's text in the image and I struggle with that even more. But I will check and edit when needed! #AltText #ThankYou

#Journal of a Dutch Pixy 🧚🏼‍♀️ (Sunday, 20/04/2025). Woke when my alarm went off. Had woken one before for the loo, but then quickly fell asleep again till my alarm told me that it was time. First I gave Arwen her meds. Then I got to the scale, got dressed, and took my own meds. A quick loo break for Arwen and then we had to wait till it was time for me to feed her. We're still getting used to that... 😅 When it was time, I fed her, I got my bag, gave her a kiss and headed to Skoosh. I checked my notifications while I enjoyed the protein shake. Then I got to the seated bike and rode for half an hour. Followed by ten minutes in the massage chair. A quick change of shoes and I headed back to Arwen. Washing up, change of clothes, and brekky. The weather was decent enough, just a bit chilly, but it was dry. So we had a nice walkies. I worked on my blog a wee bit while Arwen had all the sniffs. When we got home, I got my laptop and worked on my blog some more. Then I relaxed a bit on the couch. Arwen and I went to the Herperduin again for walkies when it was slowly getting light again. She really had a nice time. I played my Hogwarts game a bit further, while Arwen was relaxing. Around 9, Arwen wanted her usual walkies again. She was fortunate, as the saw the neighbor, so some nomnoms were had. Some more relaxing with a wee bit of gaming. I fixed Arwen's food. Then we headed to Nijmegen. There, mum and I took the dogs to the small woods and they seemed to have a nice time. Then I did some puzzles with my mum, we solved a Sudoku shed been doing together. And I DuckDuck-ed some questions that she didn't know the answers to. It was nice to do together. 😊 After a bit, I walked a short walk with the dogs again. I had some time with my parents and then mum ordered some food and I went to pick it up. It was getting late to me, so it threw me off my routine a bit. But heck, it's only one day... We had a nice meal and I even got to take some home for tomorrow. 😊 When Arwen and I got home, we quickly walked the last round and got ready for bed. When I heard Arwen relax, I was able to fall asleep as well. It was going to be a short night, as I had to get up in time for Arwen's meds again. I slept in one go till a few minutes before the alarm was set to go off. It was a good sleep but I definitely could have used a few more hours. So, I got up and started my day/night. And yay, it was raining loads. Wet night ahead, according to the weather app ☔. 🧚🏼‍♀️ 🍀 💜 🐾 #PixysJourney #WeirdFolks @weirdfolks group PS. Sorry for the altbot help with my text, I'm tired and spoons are missing... 😔

:bear_love: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos :purple_heart_sparkle: First of all: thanks to all that followed me! Sorry I didn't follow back everyone (yet?), but I've been low on spoons and it was just bläh... Sorry! When we interact more, and I am not following you yet, I'll do my best to catch up then! :blobcatflower: Anywhoo! I is back again! Caught up on the notifications again. 😊 I had a decent night, even got about 7 hours of sleep. It's not much, but it's better than the less than 6 that I've been getting for a while now. Worrying over Arwen doesn't improve the time I'm able to sleep... The alt text poll is almost coming to an end! And I've been seriously overwhelmed by the reactions!! I never dreamed of getting this much votes, boots, and comments. I tried to reply to everyone that took the effort to share their experience. I really learned from this, and I'm even more motivated to learn to write better Alt texts. Some things I will use the altbot/AI for, as they are too hard for me (images with loads of texts, or images from games, for instance). But I will try to learn from them and improve my own writing for sure. And thanks for almost everyone being respectful and kind! :bear_love: I only blocked one person that was unkind to one person that had replied to me. I don't do bullies and that's an immediate block from me. Sorry that this Friendo got this nasty comment, it was not deserved at all! :blobcatflower: Today will be a bit different. Around 10:30 well go to Nijmegen to visit my parents. There will be food as well, but it also means a longer day for me today... 😊 So hopefully that will go well. Maybe I can squeeze in some gaming this morning, to relax a bit before the visit? And maybe, if weather allows, Arwen will want to visit the woods again? 😊 I hope you're all having a good weekend so far! Easter just started here, so happy eggs-and-bunny day to all that celebrate! 🐣 Catch you all in a bit folks! :squirtle_jam: 🧚🏼‍♀️ 🍀 💜 🐾 #PixysJourney

After sharing a Toot about alt text usage, I got curious. This is nothing too serious though, nothing to have heated discussions over, just me being curious after isn't comments that I've read... I know that enjoyment of alt text can also depend on the quality of the alt text! And some folks use meager alt texts, where it may just say "black cat", while others are good at describing images and will include many beautiful details. Others may want to use them but struggle with writing them, so they may use altbot or the alt4me hashtag... It would be nice to get a good idea about how much alt texts are appreciated. Boots are welcome :boosts_ok_gay: of course. I know some people are against the use of ai/bot for the creation of alt texts... That's not the question here. I don't mind a respectful chat about it with people that want to share. But please! Keep it kind and respectful. People that use the bot/AI, like I do, do try to write inclusive image toots that are accessible to all. Not adding any alt text would be the "lazy" option (I've been called bad names and lazy for having altbot help me with the texts). Thanks for voting and sharing! :ablobcatbongopost: #AltText

#Journal of a Dutch Pixy 🧚🏼‍♀️ (Wednesday, 16/04/2025). I woke before the alarm. I through it was almost time when I woke, so I got up. Then I checked the time again and well, it was an hour earlier than I thought it had been. But, Arwen didn't mind me being up... I hit the scale, got dressed, took my meds and prepped Arwen's meal. Then I took her outside so she could do her thing. Back inside, she got her meal, and I put out the snacks for her to enjoy after that. I got my bag and headed to Skoosh. At the gym, I enjoyed my protein shake while I waited for the meds to kick in. I checked my socials, and then I got to the seated bike. I rode it for half an hour. Followed by the massage chair for ten minutes. Changed my shoes again and headed back to Arwen. Washed up, changed clothes, had brekky, and then Arwen and I went for walkies. It's a bummer that we can't do the longer walks anymore, but I'm very grateful that we can still do the shorter ones... As I really enjoy that quiet time together with her. And, of course, trying to get good selfies with her. 😊 We had a nice walk, and when we got back, I just felt a tad tired... So I relaxed with Arwen on the couch, instead of riding the hometrainer. I worked on a blog post, which I thought would be a "quick and simple" one, so of course it was a bigger one that took me quite a bit of time and effort to get right. 😇 I tried to play a bit of a game that had come out on Tuesday. Well, an update came out... It wad nice to get back to it, but I had to remind myself of the controls a bit. After a while, Arwen wanted to go out again, so we did. Some more relaxing happened, as I was getting a bit anxious. To be honest, there was nothing to be anxious about.... I just had to go to the vet to pick up Arwen's new meds... But I kept checking the time, as you know, I need to be there in time, even though there was no set time for it.... I walked Arwen again, and she saw her friend for a bit. When we got back, I relaxed some more with my game. But the game seemed to have a bug, or I've been doing it wrong... 🤔 So that annoyed me some... 😔 Just before we needed to head to the vet, Arwen and I did another walkies together. I took her with me to the vet, just in case they needed to know her weight for the meds. Arwen had gained a bit... Owow... 😔 But we were able to get the meds, and we were on our way home again. Even though we had short walkies before we went, Arwen wanted the usual walkies at the usual time... So yeah, of course we went. I quickly started the washing machine before that. And then we were off. Arwen was lucky again, as we spotted the neighbor, and she got treats and cuddles again. When we got back, I hung the laundry out to dry. Then I just relaxed on the couch for a while with Arwen... I wished I could just give her the meds, but I had to wait till that night, as she needed to be sober for it. After Arwen and I had some food and relaxing, of course it was time for a short walk again. After that, I watched some telly, and even fell asleep for a bit. This afternoon, a parcel was scheduled to arrive. The new sunglasses that my parents helped me to get. Yay! So the walkies with the neighbor were close by home, so we could spot the van, should it pop up as we were out with the dogs. Around 14:50, the glasses arrived. It was perfectly packed and it looked great. And the sunglasses were sooooo cool too! Looking though them was just wonderful, as I tried them out while walking Arwen. It wasn't too sunny then, but I could see how well the glasses worked. 😊 Then we got ready for bed again... My bedroom door was open again, so Arwen could reach me should she need me. It didn't take too long to fall asleep. I woke once for the loo. And when I heard Arwen, it was also easy to fall back asleep again. Then, I woke about half an hour to the alarm. The new day/night began, but they were a bit different from our usual routine, due to Arwen's meds... 🧚🏼‍♀️ 🍀 💜 🐾 #PixysJourney #WeirdFolks @weirdfolks group PS snap attached is an image I edited to use for a song Playlist on Spotify. They are a mix of two snaps so I hope that altbot can make sense of it for me. 😊

Ello sweet and very lovely Friendos :bear_nuzzle: A long "pupdate", with how Arwen is doing, how I've been doing, what we've been doing together... I've just edited and boosted my GoFundMe toot. I added a quick update on the top, so people can see how far we've come already. As many of you know, I've been an emotional mess since Arwen started struggling more since last Thursday afternoon. And I know I should enjoy every minute with her. And I am... But when I don't hear her snoring, when I have to leave the room, or the house even, there is always this fear that our journey together may have ended... She has lived a good life, or so I hope. She had some trauma in her early life, thanks to something my ex did (not on purpose, but it happened and I've been feeling off about that ever since it happened, as it could have been prevented, had my ex listened to me in the first place...). She's known some struggles. She was with me when I was happy, or at least I thought I was happy. She was with me when I thought life wasn't worth living anymore. She showed me love, unconditional love, and support. She believed in me when I felt like giving up. I know she's "just a pet" to some folks. But to me, she is so much more. She has been the bestest of friends, and she's given me more than I had any right to get... So now, I need to do right by her... I am trying to raise the funds for when her soul has passed the rainbow 🌈 bridge, so that I will be able to take her home, and that I can use some of her ashes in a beautiful pendant, so I can keep her close with me, as long as I will be around... And, thanks to the beautiful people of the Fedi, 350 out of the 400 Euro goal has been reached. Should she pass before the goal is made, I am sure that someone I know will be able to help me with the last 50 needed. I had some money saved for her yearly shots. But I don't know if she will make it that long, so I am using them to pay for the meds that I can pick up this morning. My parents gave me the rest that I needed. I can pick up the meds this morning, and I'll be able to start giving them to her tonight, after we had our snoozes... Owww, she just joined me on the couch, and she's snoring peacefully next to me now... :parrot_sad: Bless her lovely soul... I hope that the new meds will give her some more comfort. People may say that it's cruel to have her go on with pain meds. But... When she sees me, she wags her tail. She is eager for walkies. Yes, we go less far. Yes, we're slower. But she enjoys the sniffs and time together. She needs some more rests, which she "sneaks in" as extra sniffs... And that's all OK... She still enjoys her food and snacks. Even though she can't eat the harder snacks anymore. So I either soak them for her, or I try to give the softer snacks. Unfortunately, many snacks are harder ones, so soaking is the best option then... 😊 I keep an eye out on her. If she's panting more, then I check her temps, which have been good so far. I think it's just being a bit discomfortable that;'s making her pant more... So I do hope that the new meds will help with that. And when she shows me that it's time, I'll do my best to be there for her, in any way she'd need me to be. I'm sorry that I've been emotional lately. That I've been going on about my dog, with sad messages and talking about the end of a life... I am just so sad, because yeah, knowing your time is ending hurts a lot. A journey we've traveled together for almost 12 years, a journey where so much has happened, a bond that's so strong... It just frakking hurts to know that it's slowly/quickly coming to an end... Thank you to all that have supported me. :bear_nuzzle: It means so much! Sorry that I've been less reactive towards your toots. I commented less, I boosted less, I did try to like them when I saw them... My state of mind is just very messy at the moment. My apologies... Thanks again for everything. I really appreciate it and your help really helps me to keep going. :bear_love:

:bear_love: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos :purple_heart_sparkle: I decided to not take Arwen to the Herperduin this morning. If weather and health allow, we'll go again tomorrow. As much as she loves it, I noticed she was a bit more tired during walkies. So I don't want to pressure her, and let her rest today. Then, if all goes well, I'll take her again tomorrow. I want to thank all of you who have donated to the GoFundMe from the bottom of my (already slightly broken 💔) heart! Your support means the world to me, as it means that, when the hard time comes, I will (hopefully) be able to take her home! :ablobcatheartsqueeze: My biggest fear was not being able to do that, and at the moment, the funds are at 79%. Fankoos 💜 so much! When the time is there, I'll have less costs for meds and such, so then I can hopefully save that money to buy an ash-pendant... Thanks again to everyone. The donors, the boosters, the ones that showed me support in any way... :flying_hearts: These are hard times. But thanks to your generosity and care, I know I'll make it through... :bear_nuzzle: 🧚🏼‍♀️ 🍀 💜 🐾 #PixysJourney Snap added is Arwen, on her way home, at the age of 8 weeks.

:parrot_sad: Ow my..... I'm already an emotional wreck. I try to keep thinking positive, to keep focus on the good times that we may still be able to share... But that little voice in the back of my head keeps telling me that "this may be the last time that...". And I *know* I should not go there... But I'm just so scared of losing her... 💔 And now, slowly, some support is coming in. :ablobcatheartsqueeze: and every notification brings me to tears... :moomin_sad: partially sad tears because I know the time is running out... Also, partially happy tears , because people care for me and Arwen. People think we're important enough to get this support... However sad the reasons may be... I can never thank you with my words. I feel they will always be insufficient... If that makes sense... But we're at €290/€400 now, and it means that I, hopefully, will be able to bring her back home, after her soul has crossed the 🌈 bridge... As I mentioned in the update on GoFundMe, it would be amazing is we could raise enough to also make a start for the costs for the ash-pendant. But... Getting her the private cremation and urn, and taking her home, those will be most pressing, once she's passed... When I've got the ashes, I can save for the ash-pendant to wear her close to my heart forever.... Thanks ever so much for all your support! :bear_love: Arwen and I really appreciate all you do for us... :bear_nuzzle: I'll try to keep sharing all the Arwen pics I can, both here and on Pixelfed. Because she is worth it... :purple_heart_sparkle: For those that want to make me so some more, the link to the GoFundMe is https://www.gofundme.com/f/AlwaysArwen :neomouse_hug_blahaj_heart: #GoFundMe #Grateful #Labrador #DogsOfMastodon #Labradorable #EyeContact in #Selfie