Ello sweet and very lovely Friendos :bear_nuzzle: A long "pupdate", with how Arwen is doing, how I've been doing, what we've been doing together... I've just edited and boosted my GoFundMe toot. I added a quick update on the top, so people can see how far we've come already. As many of you know, I've been an emotional mess since Arwen started struggling more since last Thursday afternoon. And I know I should enjoy every minute with her. And I am... But when I don't hear her snoring, when I have to leave the room, or the house even, there is always this fear that our journey together may have ended... She has lived a good life, or so I hope. She had some trauma in her early life, thanks to something my ex did (not on purpose, but it happened and I've been feeling off about that ever since it happened, as it could have been prevented, had my ex listened to me in the first place...). She's known some struggles. She was with me when I was happy, or at least I thought I was happy. She was with me when I thought life wasn't worth living anymore. She showed me love, unconditional love, and support. She believed in me when I felt like giving up. I know she's "just a pet" to some folks. But to me, she is so much more. She has been the bestest of friends, and she's given me more than I had any right to get... So now, I need to do right by her... I am trying to raise the funds for when her soul has passed the rainbow 🌈 bridge, so that I will be able to take her home, and that I can use some of her ashes in a beautiful pendant, so I can keep her close with me, as long as I will be around... And, thanks to the beautiful people of the Fedi, 350 out of the 400 Euro goal has been reached. Should she pass before the goal is made, I am sure that someone I know will be able to help me with the last 50 needed. I had some money saved for her yearly shots. But I don't know if she will make it that long, so I am using them to pay for the meds that I can pick up this morning. My parents gave me the rest that I needed. I can pick up the meds this morning, and I'll be able to start giving them to her tonight, after we had our snoozes... Owww, she just joined me on the couch, and she's snoring peacefully next to me now... :parrot_sad: Bless her lovely soul... I hope that the new meds will give her some more comfort. People may say that it's cruel to have her go on with pain meds. But... When she sees me, she wags her tail. She is eager for walkies. Yes, we go less far. Yes, we're slower. But she enjoys the sniffs and time together. She needs some more rests, which she "sneaks in" as extra sniffs... And that's all OK... She still enjoys her food and snacks. Even though she can't eat the harder snacks anymore. So I either soak them for her, or I try to give the softer snacks. Unfortunately, many snacks are harder ones, so soaking is the best option then... 😊 I keep an eye out on her. If she's panting more, then I check her temps, which have been good so far. I think it's just being a bit discomfortable that;'s making her pant more... So I do hope that the new meds will help with that. And when she shows me that it's time, I'll do my best to be there for her, in any way she'd need me to be. I'm sorry that I've been emotional lately. That I've been going on about my dog, with sad messages and talking about the end of a life... I am just so sad, because yeah, knowing your time is ending hurts a lot. A journey we've traveled together for almost 12 years, a journey where so much has happened, a bond that's so strong... It just frakking hurts to know that it's slowly/quickly coming to an end... Thank you to all that have supported me. :bear_nuzzle: It means so much! Sorry that I've been less reactive towards your toots. I commented less, I boosted less, I did try to like them when I saw them... My state of mind is just very messy at the moment. My apologies... Thanks again for everything. I really appreciate it and your help really helps me to keep going. :bear_love:

:bear_love: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos :purple_heart_sparkle: I decided to not take Arwen to the Herperduin this morning. If weather and health allow, we'll go again tomorrow. As much as she loves it, I noticed she was a bit more tired during walkies. So I don't want to pressure her, and let her rest today. Then, if all goes well, I'll take her again tomorrow. I want to thank all of you who have donated to the GoFundMe from the bottom of my (already slightly broken 💔) heart! Your support means the world to me, as it means that, when the hard time comes, I will (hopefully) be able to take her home! :ablobcatheartsqueeze: My biggest fear was not being able to do that, and at the moment, the funds are at 79%. Fankoos 💜 so much! When the time is there, I'll have less costs for meds and such, so then I can hopefully save that money to buy an ash-pendant... Thanks again to everyone. The donors, the boosters, the ones that showed me support in any way... :flying_hearts: These are hard times. But thanks to your generosity and care, I know I'll make it through... :bear_nuzzle: 🧚🏼‍♀️ 🍀 💜 🐾 #PixysJourney Snap added is Arwen, on her way home, at the age of 8 weeks.

:parrot_sad: Ow my..... I'm already an emotional wreck. I try to keep thinking positive, to keep focus on the good times that we may still be able to share... But that little voice in the back of my head keeps telling me that "this may be the last time that...". And I *know* I should not go there... But I'm just so scared of losing her... 💔 And now, slowly, some support is coming in. :ablobcatheartsqueeze: and every notification brings me to tears... :moomin_sad: partially sad tears because I know the time is running out... Also, partially happy tears , because people care for me and Arwen. People think we're important enough to get this support... However sad the reasons may be... I can never thank you with my words. I feel they will always be insufficient... If that makes sense... But we're at €290/€400 now, and it means that I, hopefully, will be able to bring her back home, after her soul has crossed the 🌈 bridge... As I mentioned in the update on GoFundMe, it would be amazing is we could raise enough to also make a start for the costs for the ash-pendant. But... Getting her the private cremation and urn, and taking her home, those will be most pressing, once she's passed... When I've got the ashes, I can save for the ash-pendant to wear her close to my heart forever.... Thanks ever so much for all your support! :bear_love: Arwen and I really appreciate all you do for us... :bear_nuzzle: I'll try to keep sharing all the Arwen pics I can, both here and on Pixelfed. Because she is worth it... :purple_heart_sparkle: For those that want to make me so some more, the link to the GoFundMe is https://www.gofundme.com/f/AlwaysArwen :neomouse_hug_blahaj_heart: #GoFundMe #Grateful #Labrador #DogsOfMastodon #Labradorable #EyeContact in #Selfie

:dogeparrot: SniffiVerse™ walkies Toot :annoyingdog: Ello frens and fans of Arwen :verified_paw: We're out for walkies :kirby_walk: again. 😊 The weather is nice enough, with a lovely waning 🌖 moon... I did my best at the gym, as much as my leg allowed. I rode 35 minutes and then enjoyed the massage chair for ten. I was earlier, so it was busier. Which wasn't too good, but my music and phone helped to distract me. 😊 Today should be a decent enough day. I need to finish my journal post, but that's almost done already. I wanna build the laptop table that I bought yesterday. And I want to change the curtains in the bedroom. The old curtains will need a wash, and then I hope that I can make a friend happy with them... I need some groceries today, and I'll have my PT. I can discuss the upcoming surgery then. And, hopefully, my PT will know something that could help my annoying elbow... If the weather will allow, and if Arwen is interested, I'd like to take her to the Herperduin again. I know she really loves it... :flying_hearts: it's such a joy to watch her have a good time there. Let's see if I can write a bit for my blog now... Hope you've all had a good start of the new week! :darkmodeparrot: 🧚🏼‍♀️ 🍀 💜 🐾 #PixysJourney #Moon

#Journal of a slightly emotional Dutch Pixy 🧚🏼‍♀️ (Monday, 14/04/2025). I woke before the alarm, and it was still early, as it was a little of an hour before the alarm was set to go off. But I had some weird dreams and I was awake, so I just started my day... The scale wasn't too bad, which was nice. I got dressed, took my meds, prepped Arwen's food, and I took her out. She did what she had to to, and then was eager to head back in, as it was food time. When she was happily eating, I got my bag, said goodbye, and headed to the gym. I caught up with the social media bits while I enjoyed my protein shake and while I was waiting for the meds to kick in... I started a GoFundMe for then the hardest time of my life will come, and I'll need funds to make sure that I can take Arwen home again... 😢 (https://www.gofundme.com/f/AlwaysArwen). It was hard to do, but I know that I'll need the help and it needs to be arranged before the time comes and I'll be a wreck (and I guess I'll need the funds quickly then, as I think they won't do it for free...). Then I got to the seated bike. And, my leg was kind this time, as I even managed 40 minutes. 😊 I enjoyed the massage chair after that. Switched my shoes, and quickly headed back to Arwen. Washed up, changed clothes, and had brekky. The weather was decent enough, so that was a plus. We had a nice, short, walk. Arwen seemed pleased with the shorter walk. Maybe she was already hoping that we would be able to go to the water side later that day? 😇 I changed clothes and headed to the hometrainer. I managed another 40 minutes. Then I even got a few other exercises in, yay me. I went downstairs, got my laptop, and worked on my journal blog post. I finsiehd all that I could do, so that felt good. Then Arwen wanted some walkies again so we headed out together. We had a nice walk, and when we got back, we relaxed on the couch for a bit. When it was getting light out, I got Arwen's towel and asked if she'd be interested... Ow my, she was... 🤩 So of course that brought me to shed some tears... We headed to the Herperduin, and I even managed some vids and snaps of her. Just a short walk, with a few splashes. She was tired when we got to Skoosh, but she seemed to be rather happy, so I'll definitely take that! 😁 We headed back home, where I made some food. We relaxed on the couch, while we waited for our friend to text me about Ikea. Around 9, I walked Arwen. She was fortunate, as we saw the neighbor again... 😋 When we walked back, our friend was pulling up, so she hugged the dogs, and then we got ready to head to Ikea. The drive there was OK enough, but somehow, in a short time, three "lion cars" thought it OK to cut me off... 🤔 My friend wondered if I had a bumper sticker, saying that I hate lions! 😂 The rest of the drive went well, and we got a decent parking spot. We got all that we came for, so that's a plus. When we got back to the car, I was just setting up the navigation, when I heard a car horn. That could not be for me? My car was in neutral, and I was still in my spot. But... That seemed to be the problem! Some bimbo in an OOOO car (as I call them...) really wanted my spot! 🤔 She wanted it so badly, that she was annoyed when she had to move to give me space so that I could head out... 🤔 She was all set up to "get it in", forgetting that Skoosh first had to get out... But I felt so weird! I wasn't doing anything bad, there were plenty of spaces left, but she felt agressive towards me because I didn't vacate the space quickly enough? Ah well... The drive home went OK and Arwen was glad to see us back. We walked with Arwen, and our friend noticed that Arwen's health was really declining... 😔 When we got back, she headed back home, and I fixed food for Arwen and me. The weather was nice, so I wanted to be in the garden with my eBook. Arwen joined me in the shade, but at some point, she wanted me to go inside. I told her she could go. But that didn't work. She just lay in the sun, panting heavily, until I got my stuff together and we could both head inside. Guess she really wanted to be with me... We got ready for walkies with N&B. I got something at Ikea for N, so we took that along. We had a nice walk, and it was warm enough to be enjoyable. Then Arwen and I relaxed a bit, till she told me that she wanted to head out again. So we went for the last walkies before bed, and she did all she needed to do. I got the bedroom door open again, so Arwen could warn me should she need me... It took a little while to fall asleep. I had a weird dream and woke up, thinking it was time already. But it was still 3½ hours till the alarm. Went to the loo. Slept again for a hour. Woke again, turned around, and after a while I fell asleep again. Around 21:50, still a bit early, I heard Arwen pacing around so I got up and started my day. The scale was nice. 😊 And when we headed out, Arwen did a biiiiig wee, so I guess she was glad that I got up a bit earlier. So yeah, that's how I started my new day/night. 🧚🏼‍♀️ 🍀 💜 🐾 #PixysJourney #WeirdFolks @npub1gnj9...vk7h

:bear_love: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos :purple_heart_sparkle: I is early today.... Woke up because I heard Arwen. So I quickly started my day. And I think Arwen was pleased to see me earlier, as she did a big wee.... Her tummy seems to be doing a bit better. Less smelly winds and the poo 💩 seems better too. But still, even though her head still wants to go on, her body slowly fades... 😢 It makes me so sad to see her... But as long as she shows me that she wants to keep going... I'll do anything I can to keep her comfy and happy. 😊 Yesterday (well, as I'm earlier now, it was actually earlier today 😂 this can be confusing 😂) I went to Ikea for a bit. The drive there was OK enough, but somehow, in a short bit of the route, there were the three "lion cars" that all tried to cut me off... 🤔 My friend wondering if I had a sticker on the back of Skoosh saying that I didn't like lions 😂. The shopping was quickly done, which was a plus. But then... We were back in Skoosh, and I was entering the data in the navigation. I heard a honk. 🤔 But it seemed that a "lady" in a OOOO car really wanted my spots (yeah as there were no other spots available 😂). So I "had to hurry" for her! Euh... Hmm... But! She was blocking the path and... I could not get out because of her. 😂 Then she was even more annoyed (maybe even angry), because she had to make space for me to actually get out of the spot before she was able to get in. But really, when you get into the car... I should be "allowed" to enter the data in the navigation before I drive off? 🤔 So while the Ikea went well and I got what I needed, the experience with other drivers was... Weird! I didn't use the Ikea things yet. I wanna build the little laptop table tonight and, hopefully, I'll be able to hang the curtains this morning. But my arms were tired yesterday, and my elbow is still sore now, as I was stubborn and I "just carried" the table to the register and to the car. It wasn't that heavy nor big, (about 12 kilos I think), but it seemed to have been a bit too much for my stupid elbow. 😔 I have PT today (well, tomorrow, 😂), so hopefully my physio can help me some with that stupid elbow... The scale was nice, as it went down a wee bit. I was rather "proud" of myself yesterday, as I managed to have a good calorie count with my food. Which doesn't happen too often. So, yay me! Still, I'm too heavy and should lose some weight... But I'm trying to do my exercises again, so that's something... I had a few donations for the GoFundMe for when Arwen passes... And for that, I'm very grateful! :ablobcatheartsqueeze: I did boost the Toot just now, as I do hope that more people will be able to help. But, every bit helps! In the end, should I not have enough, maybe I could borrow some from someone? 🤔 I won't have anymore costs for Arwen after that, so that should give me a possibility to pay them back more easily? Of course I hope that I won't need the money yet for some time to come!! But I have to be realistic, however much it hurts... Arwen is getting less of what she used to be... :parrot_sad: of course I would love it if she would be able to make it to 12. But yeah, I need to be fair to her and see how she's doing. I never want her to struggle too much, just because I don't wanna say goodbye... :moomin_sad: Well, let's see how today will go for me. I need some groceries, and funds are low, so yay for some stores where I can use the credit card.... My coupon savings from AH almost has a full "booklet" (they used to be booklets, but now it's digital, but they still call it that way). I hope that I can fill it before next week Friday, so I can use the money for Arwen. I'll need to contact the vet, as she may need different pain meds instead of the injections... But I have an email from them, so I will try to email them tonight, to explain the situation and see what they have to say. I'm not big with phone calls, especially when it comes to Arwen now (I really am rather emotional, I just tear up writing this bit... 🫣)... But with Easter this weekend, I doubt that they have a spot for me sooner anyway. But maybe they have meds that I could come and pick up for Arwen. I do want her to be comfy... Anywhoo.... For those wanting to help me to save money for a cremation and urn, the link to the GoFundMe is: https://www.gofundme.com/f/AlwaysArwen I know she's still alive, but as soon as she crossed the rainbow 🌈 bridge, then I'll need to make arrangements... Let's see if I can get a bit of exercise in. Fankoos 🫶🏻 so much for all your support and help! :ablobcatheartsqueeze: I really appreciate it! 🧚🏼‍♀️ 🍀 💜 🐾 #PixysJourney PS. Snap is Arwen, having fun at the water side this Monday. 😊

Hello @Fedilab Apps it's me again! The app has been working a lot better since the update! There is still one thing that hasn't been fixed with the update... The names of the people that Toot... Often, not all of their name gets displayed. Or if they use emojis, they don't (all) show up. This happened before the update as well, and I'm sure I've mentioned it here sometimes... 😊 The account name shows properly, but often the display name is incomplete. Hopefully this can be corrected with an easy and minor fix? I would really appreciate it, as it's always been my fave app, till it started crashing on me a lot... 😊 Thanks for all the hard work! :blobcatflower:

Owow.... 🫣 I just turned on the notifications for @Fedilab Apps again and the first thing it did was... Crash! Not a good omen... I sent the requested report from the app by email. Hopefully this was just one mistake by the app, and it won't crash again... 🤞🏻

:bear_love: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos :purple_heart_sparkle: I've seen people Toot about Friendica and I was wondering what it is. I know that it's seen as a new way of FB, but better. I've not been on FB in ages, I deleted my account (but I sometimes wonder if it really got deleted... 🤔) years ago... I enjoy Masto, I enjoy Pixelfed and PeerTube, and I was wondering if joining Friendica would add something to my Fedi experience, or if it would be "lost on me". Are any of my friends on there, and can they/you share a bit of what Friendica is all about? I know there are websites and all that, but at the moment, my brain is in a place where things just don't really get seen if they're not "aimed at me". I hope this makes sense, but I mean, it's easier to understand personal messages than a broader public general post. Thanks for sharing, if you can. 😊 Owww and if it should be something I could be interested in, are there any instances you'd recommend me? My Masto favorite "flavor" (it's actually a color 😉) is beige... :bb: :blobcatflower: Fankoos! #Friendica #DareToAsk #Fediverse :fedi:

I saw many folks doing #FANurary and I thought... With all the folks joining #Pixelfed :pixelfed: at this point... I would advise to follow. @Bryan 🏳️‍🌈 Pixelfed He's exploring Jacksonville in Florida and he explores *everything*. Nature, buildings, bridges, traintracks... If it's in Jacksonville, he will show it! Plus he's such a nice guy!! I don't often do recommendations, but I thought this one was very worth it!