:bear_love: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos 💜 :bear_flowers: first of all, I wanna say a big "Fankoos" to all of you! 🌸 My depression has been kicking my ass, and it's still kicking unfortunately, and I've been struggling. My toots have been darker, more sad, and I've been struggling with engaging with more toots. I tried to leave likes when I saw your toots. I tried to even boost a few, but I still struggle a bit with that. And sometimes I want to boost but then there's no Alt text... 😢 I'm not out of the woods yet. I did recognize the depression for what it is, so now I can start fighting again. But that takes spoons and mine have been rather low... So it will take time and I may have more sad moments to share before I can have more happier toots again (but I am trying). I'm trying to do more fun things again. Visit the woods with Arwen again, now I know she won't swim when I tell her not to do so. I'm trying to game more. I'm trying to keep up with some chores at home so it will become more neat and done so I can relax better... 😊 But I still struggle with dark thoughts. I struggle with my food. And weight, obviously... 😔 And that's hard. I don't wanna procrastinate, but depression is a star in making up excuses and taking away the motivation needed to actually do things. So fankoos 💜 so much for the support! For the likes, boosts, and comments. They really help! 🧚🏼‍♀️ 🍀 💜 🐾 #PixysJourney #Depression #MentalHealthMatters

:dogeparrot: SniffBook walkies :annoyingdog: are a go! It is dry, for now, with some high humidity and 14°C. I'm feeling a bit bläh again 😔. I wish I could have done more cardio at the gym, but I just felt so out of it. 😔 Ugh... I know I have to kick depressions big butt! But it is making it quite difficult for me, taking away my spoons... And stealing my motivation. And causing me more discomfort... 😔 You'd think that after years dealing with depression, you'd get better at it. And partially, it's true, as I know what I need to do. But the dark monster is just so strong, holding me back in so many ways, so that I can't do what needs to be done. It feels like I keep making excuses, which makes me feel more bad, which then of course fuels the strength of the dark monster... 😔 But I am determined to win! It may take some time... I may get even worse before I can find the strengh to fight back. But realizing that I need to gather that strength is the first step! 💪🏼 Let's browse the phone some more for vids to share to PeerTube. There's loads of Arwen vids, but I wanna edit some from HD to 720, as the vids aren't that important to be HD and take up too much space on the server. I know I've edited the Herperduin vids to lower quality to share them here, but that's a wee bit too low for PeerTube. I would like to have a better version available for you to enjoy loads of Arwen's happiness. 🐾 💜 Maybe I'll write some for my blog too... Let's see how I feel about it when I try it... Sorry that I'm not doing too good. I wish I could share more happy toots. But it feels that every time I have a happy something, the depression does it's best to kick it down so I won't get to enjoy it too much... Hope you're all having a good time! #TZAG 🌈 *I'll be back!* :terminator: 🧚🏼‍♀️ 🍀 💜 🐾 #PixysJourney #WeirdFolks @npub1gnj9...vk7h

Just a thought that crossed my mind, especially after my feeling of loneliness yesterday... Without the internet, I would be a lot more lonely... :bear_love: I struggle with phone calls. I struggle with social gatherings. But I can chat online with friends, be it in a chat app or on social media. :neuro: Social media gives me a connection to the world. And even though I am still living alone, with the internet, I am still connected in a way that I can deal with. :fedi: For which I am very grateful. :heart_sparkles_bisexual: Fankoos for being on the other end of the big wide web! :purple_heart_sparkle: I really appreciate it! :bear_nuzzle: #AuDHD #Loneliness #Friendship #Grateful