‘There is nothing new in human experience.Each generation thinks it invented debauchery,suffering or rebellion but every impulse & appetite from the disgusting to the sublime is on display right here right now…to understand something in the present, you must understand the past.’ The Holdovers (2023)

Darkness overwhelms a meaningless existence. But not all Hope is lost. Have faith and choose The Light for sight to show your soul the meaningful way.

Everything feels meaningless. There is no point and nothing matters. There is only hurt, pain and sadness. I ungratefully question my existence. Death feels like it would be a relief. To be nothing. To be free of life’s shackles

Journal entry 2025/12/22 Loneliness has a way of sharpening itself at this time of year. The reminders of being alone, distant family, shallow conversations pile up. I numb the cuts with good liquor and quiet resentment. I’ve grown to hate this season. 😔