Two years ago, on this day, I thought I had a chance to show my skills and talents. Then, suddenly, I realized a whole new problem was about to start, and this time we couldn't escape or fight it back as we did before. Now, I'm losing hope and see no future.
There was a time when I didn’t think about the future and had no responsibilities. But now, I’ve changed myself to help others. Still, life seems to be pushing me back into being the person I once was the one I’ve tried so hard to leave behind. And when I talk to others about it, they just say, “You have to accept it.”
But why should I accept this? Does it mean I’ll never have a good life? Am I supposed to live forever just hoping for a better life that will never come? If all this is my karma, then what’s the point of living? I feel like I’m dying inside every day and night.
People laugh at my pain, and now everything they laughed about has actually happened. Even death seems to avoid me that's why I keep suffering. No matter how hard I try to change, I feel like I’m stuck in the same place, completely alone. I don’t know if I’ll ever get my life back.
