I made some spaghetti yesterday, which cost about 5 US dollars. It serves 4 or 5 people, in other words it's around 1 dollar per person. It's up to 5 US dollars to buy one serving in the restaurant. Cooking by ourselves is so cheap, which is a blessed thing for the poor like me. But the flaw is that I use too much ketchup.......(I forgot there were some tomatoes in my house.), there was too much oil and sugar. Eat a little, and the spaghetti tastes delicious, but ate too much, the oil and sugar made me slightly sick. Anyway I reproduced the spaghetti not badly. BTW, there is a lot of spare sauce, I don't want to have more spaghetti.......but if I dump it, it seems like a waste. No matter what, thanks for reading. Hope you have a good time today.

Anyway, today I come here again~ The outcome of learning English seems too trivial. Yeah, the word is trivial not little. I calculate the time I have spent on English, and it's up to about 1700 hours. And what I can do is that I can speak, listen, write and read something very easy. Who says it just costs 1500 hours to learn English. So I wonder why those multi-linguists can speak four or five languages. If they learn them in their adulthood, four languages will cost 9000 hours at least. But one day, when I watched Youtube, I found a so called multi-linguist trying to say hello in many languages. All seem very stunning until she said hello in my native language. I know a foreigner's pronunciation can't be the same as natives, at least you should make other people understand what you are saying though. However, if I hadn't known what she wanted to do earlier, sorry, I can't understand what she said, even for the language, I'm a native speaker. So maybe for us adult learners, it's very difficult and exhausting to learn speaking a language fluently.

Just have a group video call with my dormitory-mates. It reminds me that it's around four months since we graduated from university......... A little nostalgic. Well everyone looks not very well. Lives are like succumbs who can suck all your energies out. If there were opportunities that I could return to the past with health, everything would have become different. I wouldn't have gotten depression and other many mental diseases, maybe I wouldn't have chosen the major that I don't like. Well, I may choose Japanese as my major. Then there would have been 4 year-long time to enjoy 2 dimensions. If there would have been spare time, learning English seems like a good choice. I want to translate Marx's masterpieces. The translation versions in my first language are too confusing to understand for normal people. Some translated terminologies are complicated and obscure....... However it says that the origins are easy to read even for the elder. But there aren't too much 'if it'. I doubt if I am too sentimental for now? Maybe God knows it. That's it.(I wonder if anyone will read the article) Anyway, regardless of how many people will read it, thanks for your reading. Good night and hope you will be happy and healthy.

Something awkward happened yesterday........ I practiced English with a person on an app(because it's free through it, I'm so poor that little money is available to practice English with a teacher). Then......... When the person known I was a man, he didn't reply me immediately.(Maybe it's so called sex discrimination.(T_T)). Out of curiosity, I saw his profile. As I anticipated, he was a man. (T_T), hey dude, this behavior is a little annoying, men and women are equal, right? Gender equality or something else. Men should be treated politely too, ok?? A little sad and awkward. That's it

Chill o(*￣▽￣*)ブ.......... I indulge in two dimensions these days. Animes and LNs are so intriguing for me. Why wouldn't I have discover these entertainments? In order to read more joyful LNs, I began learning English harder(As for why I don't learn Japanese, it's because I must make a living. Teaching English can earn some money, which may be not a big sum, but enough for my life..........) Then I want to complain the translator of the novel Too Many Losing Heroines ! When translating, please don't translate the origin by pronunciations!!! Some translated words are too long!!! And how do I pronounce some consonances such as R ?? In Japanese, the pronunciation of the consonance 'R' sounds like the consonance L in English. So if it pronounces 'L' in English, please translate to Lxxx not R xxxx!!! They are really really annoying!!

Something to say......... I wonder how people learn a new language? I think I learned English in a stupidly way in the past. Do exercises and drills over and over again. From middle school to high school, around 6 years, students can only understand about 3500 words. Nowadays when the strange behavior comes to my mind, I feel a little absurd. What can students that only understand 3500 words do? Reading an article requires 7000 words at least. As for speaking and writing, if they were easy, what would I have done for? Too many drills are a total waste of time.

Some nostalgic things occurs me....... I got depression and many other mental diseases from the 3rd grade in middle school. It was a long journey to treat myself. Eat tablets and pills, think why I should live rather than die, and sometimes strong urgency pushes me to commit suicide. a so long Long journey lasted for nearly 7 years. It makes me miss my middle school high school and nearly a total university school lives. When others brags about their own youth, I'm silent and may be a little jealous. Well for me, there are not too many experiences to share. Cry and cry, sadness and countless agony, who wants to share these with others? My mom said, 'you should let them go.' However, how could I do that? If it had been easy, why would I have thought like a pessimist? Totally shit......

Light novel(╹ڡ╹ ) Too Many Losing Heroines, it's so intriguing. I read it from 7 pm yesterday to 1 am this morning. Yanami Anna, the blue otter. She is so cute and moe (❤ ω ❤). Lost and failed, but she never starved. Nonsense is over~ Maybe it's not over? Someday, It hit me that I knew why I had been unhappy nervous and stressed for so long time. Because I didn't like my life. I was eager to succeed and earn a sum of fortune. However, in essence I'm just a lazy swine......... I love reading watching mangas and lots of other things, so for those, I can recite words for 300 hours to learn English. It doesn't verify I'm a hard-working person. It's just for a more neet-style life. Sometimes, I envision if I earned a lot and succeeded, what would I do for the rest of my life? The answer is simple lazy and very neet-style. Just read more books watch more anime and learning more foreign languages. So why don't I do those now?? In fact I did those as I wanted then. So chill and joyful. Well, go to read my light novels!ε=ε=ε=(~￣▽￣)~

I remember a investment portfolio, the yield is up to 10% per year...... 1/3 fund invested in US bond, 1/3 fund invested in gold(maybe buy some silver?) and the last 1/3 invested in nasdaq100 or sp500 index. The yield measured by US dollar is up to about 10% a year. BTW, the Japanese yen has dropped a lot over the past months......... I wonder how it influences your normal life. Though Japanese stock index goes to new peak, the currency plunges too much. Hope it will return to normal as soon as possible. And wish we all have happy lives.

Today is a new day! o(*￣▽￣*)ブ Maybe English is more interesting than I think. A few days ago, I listened English cover of the anime song The Idol and the original song. There is a little difference though, because of languages differences between English and Japanese.(When you speak English, it's smooth and fluent, however when you speak Japanese, I remember there are some pauses between words.) Otherwise, the meaning and the lyrics are nearly same........ So interesting it is. I wonder whether one day, I could translate something beautifully like that. But wait a second. It seems there is something wrong? When I couldn't read in English, I enjoyed loli works in my first language..... After learning English, I enjoy loli works in English. So....... ,,ԾㅂԾ,, And my goal is that..... learning Japanese, and then enjoying loli works in Japanese? Maybe it's a little absurd??