Life just kept throwing curve balls I felt nothing One thing after another Just falling apart And I was so numb to it all Trying to muster up the appropriate reaction The expected outrage But quite dead on the inside I was saving all the emotion Waiting until the really big thing And now it's here A few uncontrollable tears A sigh of disappointment Sad for the missed plans Sad for the things we didn't get to do Sad for the future empty seat at Thanksgiving Sad that the last time I saw you I was scooping you off the floor Sad I couldn't do more Sad that the last few days were true suffering Sad I couldn't stop time Sad that I didn't know what to say on so many occasions Sad you never got to see your garden in bloom All the things I planted for you Sad for the gifts I never got to give Sad that I wasn't there to hold your hand as you left this shit world behind Sad I never got to talk to you more about my philosophical indifference to the world Sad that you were left alone so many times Sad that I had to silently watch your mind unravel Just Sad