#Journal of a struggling Dutch Pixy :pixy_party: (Wednesdayy, 13/08/2025). I didn't have the best night. I was tired enough, but due to my head being too busy with things, I struggled to be relaxed enough to get some sleep. So when I finally got around to sleep, it was later than I hoped, leaving less time to sleep. As I wanted to get up earlier, because mum had to leave early for her and dad's appointments. So I prepared everything for mum's brekky before I made mine. I got dressed and then mum helped me with my shoes before she headed out the door. Bas was a little depressed with being left with me here, the horror! I make him go on walkies and I give him snacks and make sure he gets the cuddles he wants... How could mum every leave him with someone like me? 😂 But after a while he calmed down. I had worked on my journal Toot and written an email to a sweet friend. Then, I headed out with little Bas for a walk. It was already getting quite warm out. After the walk, I decided to gather some laundry, as there were some towels that needed a nice washing up. I started the load, watched some telly, and when it was done, I slowly got the washing bin upstairs to hang it all out. I waited for a parcel to arrive, as I had ordered a new cover for the tablet, as the one I got first wasn't good enough (and I will need to send that back). When the cover had arrived, I walked with Bas again. It was really getting warm now, so we tried to walk in the shade as much as we could. When we got back, I got to the bed to relax a little, as I was rather tired after the short and disrupted night. Around 15, I walked another short round with Bas. I had tried to clean up as much as I could. And I wrote a bit for my blog when mum texted me that she was on her way back to us again. Bas was all happy to see mum again and after a bit, I started to make us dinner. We watched some more of "Found", walked Bas once more, and then got back to some more telly watching. I fell asleep for a short while, as I was so tired. So when mum was ready to get to bed, and I had prepped everything for the next morning. So when I was ready to sleep some more, of course my brain got all excited and thought of all the things that I should be doing before I would try that sleeping thing again. I was in for another short night, especially seeing it was 20 degrees C at the lowest with a very high humidity. So I was icky and sticky and didn't have the best sleep. Then, around 6:40, I thought I heard Bas. So when I sat on the side of the bed to check, it was indeed Bas and he wanted to go out. So I quickly got my pants, my crutch, and a jacket and headed out with Bas, just as mum was coming down. And that's how I started my day... :pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾 #PixysJourney #WeirdFolks @weirdfolks group Hopefully @altbot@fuzzies.wtfcan can make a nice text for this snap of Basje getting all the sniffs. 😊

I tried to make and edit a little vid for a blog that I'm writing. I struggle with normal alt texts, let alone with moving images... So hopefully @Altbot can help me, so that I can provide a decent text for the image to use with my blog post... 😊

:kirby_prideheart: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos :purple_heart_sparkle: #GoodNight and #TZAG :kirby_tired: Getting ready to, hopefully, catch some 💤's soon... It's been quite a day which I'd like to finish off with a reasonable night... #Today :squirtle_jam: Wrote some bits for my blog. Had a shower. Found a bit of suture thread that I could pull out of my scar. Started the Dumbo puzzle with mum. Had several walkies with Bas, getting my steps to 6,6k. :annoyingdog: Tried to start a new blog post for Wednesday, and I'll need to finish the journal blog post tomorrow (so it can be shared in Tuesday morning). I'm in bed now, may try to write a bit for my blog before tyring to sleep (waiting for my meds to properly kick in, due to the hematoma's edema "balls" being in the way of getting comfortable for a snooze... 😔 Wonder when/if Sir Little Noise™ will join me on the bed soon... Have a good night/time everyone! Will try to catch you again in the morning. 🌕 :pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾 #PixysJourney

:kirby_prideheart: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos :purple_heart_sparkle: #GoodAfternoon and #TZAG :squirtle_jam: everyone! It's been a busy morning, but all went rather well. Yay for that. :blobcatflower: I had a decent enough night, and my watch gave me a sleep score of 72, which they call "fair". It also told me that I slept about 7:30 in total last night, so that's not bad at all. My energy score was/is even more enthusiastic, as it gives me a whopping 95! All the different bits that combine to get the score, all but one say "excellent", only my sleep time consistency was at "good", but I guess that's due to the many broken nights that I have, varied with the few better ones every now and then... I prepped everything for brekky. I worked a bit on my journal blog post on the laptop. I wrote the new journal toot. I ordered a new tablet, as the current one is very sweet and all, but it often freezes these days, due to low memory and storage. I had saved a bit, and I got some more money back from the energy and water bills, and the bill from the cremation was a little less high... So, all put together, I had some money set aside, and I was able to order myself a (simple) new one. It should be delivered next Tuesday, for which I am very excited. 😊 The old tablet is still good though, just not suitable for WordPress anymore (for me at least), as it keeps giving me errors (besides the freezing from time to time). So when the new tablet arrives, and I have set it all up, I will reset the current one. I will put the apps on it that mum frequently uses, and then she can compare this tablet to her current one. If this one is better (to her) than her current one, it's very simple: mum gets the old one. :ablobcatangel: I just had a shower. I had felt something hard at the end of my scar, but due to the ointment that mum put on it yesterday, I could not really see/feel what the hard thing was. After the shower, I carefully felt around the hard thing again and... I pulled out a short piece of suture thread! So yeah, I guess there is still some of it that hasn't self-dissolved and that is working it's way out, somehow. So yay, another bit gone. 😊 I will go and walk with Bas in a bit. And then mum and I will see if we can clear out the dinner table so the puzzle mat can be rolled out on it. There are two puzzles that mum can choose from... I've downloaded two images of the puzzles, and hopefully @Altbot can help with some descriptions. 🤞🏻 So well, let's go put on some shoes and walk with little Bas and then... Puzzle. 😊 It's been quite a while since I made a puzzle, so hopefully it will be fun. I am glad that I have been able to buy the mat, so we can (hopefully) easily store it when we need the table for other things. Have a lovely day everyone! :blobCat_sunglasses: Remember to be kind, not just to others, but to yourself as well... :moomin_flower: :pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾 #PixysJourney

#Journal of a slightly better rested Dutch Pixy :pixy_party: (Saturday, 09/08/2025). I had woken up once during the night. I fell asleep after that, and slept quite a long time in one go, I was rested some more when I woke up again. I was stiff and a bit sore, from being in one position for a longer time, but aside from that... I got up and fixed everything for brekky. When mum got down, she could start right away. I made sure that I got dressed and mum could fasten my laces before she headed out. I used my tablet to work on my journal Toot an I wrote an email to a sweet friend. Then it was time for a short walk with Bas. My right thumb was really annoying me, so I put on my push brace, and I only used the left crutch to walk with Bas. It was just a short walk and all went rather well. I wrote some more on my tablet. Then I decided to get some chores done. I cleaned up the laundry that mum had taken down. I cleaned both of the loo's. I tried to sweep the hallway floor a bit, as the mats were rather sandy. I also tried to clean the sink and plateau thingie in the bathroom. After a wee bit of relaxing, I walked with Bas again. This time, he wanted a longer walkies. When we got back, I got to bed and relaxed some while I watched telly. As my tablet is over 5,5 years old, and it wasn't the bestest one when I got it (funds and all), it is now slowly abandoning me. The memory and storage is almost full all the time, even with the memory card that I have in the slot. It's so slow at times, and sometimes it takes several tries before it wants to cooperate with what I want it to do. The tablet still looks great, the battery is decent enough as well. It's mostly the storage and little memory that keep messing up and are making me grumble. I know I could never afford a state of the art tablet, but I have been browsing a lot and found one within my range that should be a decent upgrade and, if all goes well, it should mean I can use a tablet again without grumbling so much... 🫣 I tried to write a little for my Monday blog post after I had checked several sites for the best prices for the tablet. It wasn't the easiest blog to write, but then, many of the posts I've written since July 4th have been more difficult, due to the situation and all... When mum texted me that she would be coming back later than originally planned, I made sure to get out again with Bas. I prepped everything for dinner, for when mum would be back. Mum texted that she was coming our way, and when I saw the car pull up, I helped with the bags. I quickly got the bits in the freezer and fridge. Mum unpacked the rest, and I helped her by hanging some bits on the clothes rack. When mum and I were ready, I prepared dinner for us. We watched some Luke Cage while we ate. Mum let out Bas again, and then we relaxed while watching the telly. I tried to write some more for Monday's upcoming blog post, but it was a sad one, so it was difficult to write. And I wanted to add many images and such, so it took some more time due to adding some alt texts to the snaps. Mum got ready to walk Bas a last time, and I prepped everything for the evening and next morning. Before I tried to sleep, I wanted to finish off the blog post first. When I tried to get comfortable, Bas decided to join me on the bed. I woke up twice during the night, and then I managed to get some hours of sleep in. When I woke up again, I prepared everything for brekky for mum and me. Mum had already walked with Bas, so he was content and snoozing in the bid dog bed. So I made brekky and started my day... :pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾 #PixysJourney #WeirdFolks @weirdfolks group PS. sharing an older snap of Arwen and me, because it's so darn cute (well, Arwen was... 😇 ) and I had it available on my tablet. Hopefully @Altbot can help me, because I am sure to get all sobby again if I look at it too long... 🥲

:kirby_prideheart: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos :purple_heart_sparkle: #GoodEvening and #TZAG :squirtle_jam: It's been a "weird" day today, as things haven't gone as they "usually" go on a Thursday. I didn't have the best day yesterday, and mum had some chores in Nijmegen today, so we thought it was best I would stay at home with Bas. I could take it easy and care for Sir Little Noise™, while mum could get the German groceries and do the chores at her home, without having to worry about little Sir. 🐾 I prepared everything for brekky, got dressed, so that it was all ready for when mum had to leave. I walked a short round with Bas, and after I did some writing, I walked a longer round with him. I got into something "indoor comfy" and did some chores. Mum was running a tad later, so I went out with Bas on my fake Crocs so he could do his thing. Prepped everything for dinner. Even changed my bedding, which was a challenge, but I did it. When mum came back, she was tired, even more than I was. I fixed us dinner. Mum let Bas out for a quick walk, and we watched some telly. But mum kept nodding off, so I offered to let Bas out before bed, so she could go up a little earlier... Mum has to get up rather early tomorrow morning, due to a hospital appointment of dad. And later in the afternoon, she needs to take me to a well needed/wanted physio appointment. So she'll have a long and busy day... Mum went to bed, and I tried to get comfy in bed, while watching House. Before I knew it, Bas was already snuggling up against my legs. :blobcatlove: Around 22, I'll take the last meds and let little Sir out for a last bedtime wee. Brush teeth after that and then, hopefully, be able to get comfortable enough (maybe with Bas?) to get some sleep tonight. I am glad I was able to take care of Bas. I was also glad that I could tackle several chores today. My head was pounding at times, due to the stupid muscles being too tight in my neck and shoulders... My leg was "changing" again, where the edema was "on the move", which was causing some very annoying (and painful) itching... But still... I did manage to care for Bas and do several chores. I hope mum is having a good night, and hopefully Bas and I can have a good one soon too... 🤞🏻 Catch you all later folks! With love from me 💜 and some wet boops from the little snoring Sir, who's stretched out on his back between my legs and my big behind... 🐾 :pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾 #PixysJourney

As I was getting ready to try and get some sleep about half an hour ago 🫣 my AuDHD got distracted by two side quests... :ablobcatangel: I edited an older vid for UPJ to share, bit as it's rather cute (at least to me), I'll share the little vid here too. It's been slightly edited (as quickly as I could because I did want to get some sleep), so the quality is a bit lower. Don't expect a masterpiece 😉 It's Arwen, age 5 there, and Sir Little Noise™, almost 1, playing together with a rope toy. Maybe @Altbot can help me with a more decent description, as I am really rather tired. :kirby_tired: bit the AuDHD didn't allow me any calm until I shared the vid with all of you... :kirby_popcorn: so here it is, I hope you'll enjoy it! Now, let's see about this thing called sleep... :pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾 #PixysJourney #Labrador #DogsOfMastodon #Dachshund

:kirby_prideheart: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos :purple_heart_sparkle: #GoodMorning (just, at least here) and #TZAG :squirtle_jam: Taking things a bit easier this morning. Headache is still annoyingly present. I *really* hope that the physio can make some change in that when I see him next Friday afternoon. Leg is annoying me enough that I don't need a blithering headache at all times added to it. I can take Ibuprofen again, as my blood thinners have been stopped for a few days now. And it helps for a while. But as the pain is caused by my muscles and (probably) a disc that needs some adjusting, I hope that physio will be giving more relief for a while than meds do at the moment. Is it Friday afternoon yet? 😔 Mum is busy in the garden, I'll fix her a light lunch in a bit. Bas was a bit annoyed with me, until I lay down on the bed and he could join me there (he only does that when mum isn't "reachable"). Mum made a new snap of my hip again. I edited it a bit, and it's not really gross. But it shows scars, some a bit more thick and red due to the hematoma and edema that's caused by said hematoma). And, of course, it shows the bruised bits, and some of the swelling/edema. It's not as "good" as the "live visual", but if people want to see why I'm still complaining about it... 😉 I'll CW it, just in case... Ow and UPJ wanted to know about the size of the incision, so mum measured the scar, and it's 24cm, or about 9½inch, according to the measuring tape. Just so you know. 😇 Let's get off my big, and partially bruised, behind, and make my mum some well earned lunch! 😋 Catch you later folks! Be kind :blobcatflower: and please, as master Skwerl would say, don't break the interwebs! :pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾 #PixysJourney PS. Hopefully @Altbot can help me with the image description, as I don't really know a better one as what I just told you here in the Toot. 😊

:kirby_prideheart: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos :purple_heart_sparkle: #GoodEvening and #TZAG :kirby_tired: :alert: CW snaps: hematoma's & scar in hip area after two surgeries and a 5 hour long dislocation and then setting it. You have been warned. :blobcat_dizzy: It's been quite a day. Mum and I did some groceries and we brought the used needles to the pharmacy (I needed a few shots after the second surgery). We had several walks with Sir Little Noise™, as UPJ calls him, or Weener Bas for us simple folks. :ablobcatangel: My leg is sore, swollen, warm, and constantly pushing out more of the damned second hematoma. Still, mostly thanks to Bas, I managed to get about 8k of steps today. 🐾 Without my handful of pain meds😓, I would not be able to move much at all, let alone get some sleep. As I mentioned, the second hematoma is coming "through", and it comes with swellings that get into new positions every day, like the edema like swelling is constantly on the move... This means my skin can become quite tight and hard in places. And some of them are definitely harder than my usual skin temps. But, according to the hospital and the GP, as long as there's no fever and/or signs of infection, it's apparently all part of the healing process. And the hip area went through a huge bit of trauma, which will need quite some time to be able to heal up. 😔 So, to help that process, I need to keep moving as much as is wise. I need to use my cold packs every now and then. And I need some sleep as well. Sir Little Noise™ does his best with night time cuddles and snuggles. But without the meds/pain killers, I'd be a big mess! Mum measured my latest scar, as UPJ was wondering about it's size... It's about 24cm, which came down to about 9,5inch, according to the measuring tape. I had estimated it at about 20cm, so it's even bigger than that. 🫣 The size of the current swollen area of the hematoma is even bigger/wider than that. I used an edited snap of the first hematoma that came through for a blog post a while ago... I will add it here. It was made on 14/07. I'll ask mum to grab a new snap tomorrow, before she'll put the special ointment on (as it gives a while color to it all). I'll edit that snap then too, to make it a little less personal... This was the blog post that I used that image for:

End the pain – Cynni’s Blog

Hopefully @Altbot knows what the image shows and will be able to make a suitable text for it, as I don't think "reddish hematoma and almost two week old scar" is all that... Ow, found a snap that mum made on the 23rd of July, so gave that a silly edit to add to this post as well. Waiting for the meds to kick in. 😊 When mum goes to bed, then hopefully Sir Little Noise™ will hop on the bed, give me a cuddle, and then snuggle up so we can hopefully have a few hours of snoozing together. Hope you're having a good time! And, as I often need to tell myself these days (thank stupid pain and lack of decent sleep): remember to be kind, not just to others, but to yourself as well. :ablobcatheartsqueeze: :pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾 #PixysJourney

Am working on finishing a blog post that should be going live this Monday. It's based on/started with what happened last night. Where I started to drift off to sleep, and the first thing I "saw" was one of the two saddest last memories that I have from Arwen's last hours... :parrot_sad: While I wrote the post, I cried a lot... And still, I kept on writing... I had to get the words out of my mind. I have to find a way to work on the stages of grief. And I know that my grief is deep, and due to the other huge trauma that happened that same week... I feel like it hit me even harder, as I was more vulnerable when she passed away... So yeah, I need to finish the blog now, as I want to edit and add some snaps of my gall to it. I'm sure I'll boost the link when it goes live on Monday morning. But... It could be a triggering one, I guess, due to all the sadness in it... :parrot_sad: It feels weird to say that it feels good to cry about it. I hate the snotty bits, I hate the way it makes my head feel, but... I need to allow myself to let it out. And part of that is by crying as much as I need, hopefully in times and places where it won't attract too much unwanted attention... It's been a little over four weeks and even with Bas snuggling against my foot now, I still miss that big brown furball so much... 💔 I'll let @Altbot help me for now, as my eyes are struggling and if I need to go into detail too much, I'll probably end up crying too much as it will alert mum then. And I know she'll understand, but yeah, I want this to me my way if grieving... If that makes sense... 😔 #Labrador #DogsOfMastodon #RIPArwen