With everything happening politically currently, it is clearly recognizable how blind many Americans are to the reality of the state of our government. Speaking psychologically, people in power are always going to strive to get more. Politicians no longer need the people to get it. They need us tired, sick, depressed, and unhealthy. The most recent FDA ruling against using MDMA therapy to treat PTSD is a clear as day example of this. The research on this drug is ASTOUNDING. Leading researchers noting that its outcome is “almost double that of existing medications”. Just ONE member of the FDA advisory committee had expertise in psychedelics. This member argued that the committee might have “misunderstood the aspects of the treatment” To that, isn’t the only logical reasonse is that those with decision making power should ensure that they understand the treatment. This shit makes me sooooo fucking angry. They understood. It’s threatening to the power the gov holds if people wake up and are healthy. Ughhhhhh ksskdkdj So much work to do

What if compassion is a side effect of curiosity?

Once you begin to really get to know yourself and value authenticity, it’s terribly difficult to engage with those who don’t. I try to remind myself that they are likely operating from a place of disingenuousness as a protective mechanism to avoid pain and/or rejection. The most “real” people I know have gone through times in their lives where they lost themselves completely and operated from a disconnected place (I include myself in this statement). Resilience is finding the strength to remember who you are again, in your own time, at your own pace.

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Hi- I haven’t posted daily updates because it felt important to allow myself enough time to draw material insights from the subtle shifts in consciousness I’ve experienced over the past few days of microdosing 🍄🍄‍🟫 So, without further ado, here are my day 3-6 insights: - the largest shifts remain the same as days 1&2: increased mental clarity, elevated mood, experiencing deeper connection to and presence within my environment, yet more detached from passing thoughts and emotions - I’m experiencing a subtly stronger connection to subconscious / God / spirituality, find myself focusing on it more & praying with ease, God feels like a more material part of my daily life — which I love. Im highly spiritual by nature & have felt a connection with a higher power since a young age. Lost it a bit due to mental health stuff yada yada but feels gratifying to feel like its natural to lean in - I feel more in control of how I respond to irritants and stressors. I feel an increased ability to maintain agency over my responses to my external environment - _significantly_ decreased PMDD symptoms leading up to my period which I’m so thankful for 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 those who live with pmdd will seriously benefit from this and it gives me hope. I will likely start microdosing during my luteal phase every month and tracking my symptoms. This part of my cycle is when I experience the greatest difficulty in maintaining healthy relationships with my mind & body bc of hormonal shifts that lead to extreme anxiety and depression. I feel like I’m cracking a code for integrated health intervention for pmdd and I’m pumped about it ⭐️overall I feel more authentically myself with just a subtle .1 mg of psilocybin in my system for the past 6 days. I feel more connected to my purpose, my environment, and the low time preference values I hope to lead my life with Looking forward to continuing the experience - I’m considering altering the dosage slightly after this 10 day round ends this weekend so will post about that if so

Day 1 of microdose regimen starts tomorrow. Gonna use primal as my personal diary as I go. Stay tuned 🕺🏻❤️

Top 5 Coachella sets I saw this weekend in my opinion as someone who went in with 0 expectations, 1. Tyler the Creator 2. J Balvin 3. Gesaffelstein 4. Everything Always 5. Grimes bc the meltdown was iconic

Re last post, she was a well-intentioned doctor and I wasn’t upset that her thoughts patterns automatically led her to prescribing more medication without listening to me - it’s all she knows. However, I made it clear that I was literally THERE to decrease my medication. Doctors need to develop critical thinking and empathy skills when working with patients. Our health is the most important thing we have and we must be able to trust those who are responsible for it. It was just another example of feeling unheard, unseen, and like a # to the system. 🍅 🍅 🍅

Re last post - the fact that we’re in a place to offer psilocybin as medicine makes me so proud of all the pioneers in the psychiatry space. They knew the power of psychedelic assisted therapy and didn’t give up when the FDA shut down their work in the 70’s because they were scared of people being free minded. From 1970-present doctors have been following every procedural step, by the books, so no one (aka the gov) can stop them in getting this medicine into the hands of our people.