Will power is a muscle. If you don’t use it, you lose it. Not being aware of or exercising will power will put you in subconscious ‘default’ mode. Meaning your life will be run by your subconscious fears/desires, leading to suffering. Which then leads back to exercising will again because the suffering is too great to handle. I go through this cycle many times throughout the year. When will I learn my lesson and take back my kingdom within. It’s all so tiresome.