Life just kept throwing curve balls
I felt nothing
One thing after another
Just falling apart
And I was so numb to it all
Trying to muster up the appropriate reaction
The expected outrage
But quite dead on the inside
I was saving all the emotion
Waiting until the really big thing
And now it's here
A few uncontrollable tears
A sigh of disappointment
Sad for the missed plans
Sad for the things we didn't get to do
Sad for the future empty seat at Thanksgiving
Sad that the last time I saw you I was scooping you off the floor
Sad I couldn't do more
Sad that the last few days were true suffering
Sad I couldn't stop time
Sad that I didn't know what to say on so many occasions
Sad you never got to see your garden in bloom
All the things I planted for you
Sad for the gifts I never got to give
Sad that I wasn't there to hold your hand as you left this shit world behind
Sad I never got to talk to you more about my philosophical indifference to the world
Sad that you were left alone so many times
Sad that I had to silently watch your mind unravel
Just
Sad